I'm sure I've written about his before... But what I like about photography is seeking beauty that exists, but is not readily apparent all of the time... There's a constant exploration involved.
It seems when I truly keep my eyes open, I can find something in the outer world. What's kind of sad though, I have difficulty applying such open eyes towards myself. So often I'm overwhelmed with feelings of self-loathing. I become blind to the good qualities that exist in myself. I'm unable to see beauty within.
When I go through dark phases, I'm not really sure what the answer is regarding how to escape. It seems like seeking itself is the answer, along with lots of patience. Lately I'm stuck in a dark phase, and I can't seem to get out. Part of me feels like I almost don't want to get out, which is quite confusing.
I don't think I'll figure out any answers any time soon. I guess I'll try to keep the lesson of photography in mind. Within darkness make an effort to find beauty... Within what we may view as ugly, keep making an effort... *Sigh* And maybe one day I'll be able to see myself through different eyes... Though strangely I'm almost scared to be able to see in that way... And I have no idea why...
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