Inner Control Freak

Sometimes I wish I had an On and Off switch that exists inside of me...  I'm so ambivalent about feelings of physical or romantic attraction...  At times it feels wonderful and exciting that I can actually feel something for someone...   At other times I wish I could turn it off...  If only I had some type of modulating dimmer switch of some sort...  I'd be able to adjust what I feel to just the right intensity...