Courage to Feel

*sigh*  Currently I lack courage to really feel my feelings.  I feel like I'm losing a friend, which causes a chain reaction where there is distance created with anyone connected to said person.  It hurts and I want to run and hide...  But I know there's something to be learned, to be gained from sitting still.  Where does one gather strength to fully feel the rawness?  I'm not very good when it comes to coping with any kind of loss...