Inner Rage...

I don't think I've fully felt the inner rage I needed to feel while being bullied as an adolescent.  I'm seeing a form of bullying online and it's triggering something inside of me.  I want to withdraw, yet at the same time I know I need to rage... To be angry at the cruelty...  At the heartlessness...

I need to the let the inner seething within me burn bright...  I want to say "F U!" to my past tormentors...  I want the hardness of my heart to melt so I can be soft and kind the way I wish to be...  But until I fully feel what I needed to feel, I don't think I can fully be who I wish to be...

So for now, I hope I don't deny my anger...  I hope to feel more fully...  more authentically...