In My Brokenness

It's funny...  In My Brokenness...  Those are the times I experience truths...
An Ugly Truth I experienced recently...  Deep down there exists a black hole within me.  There's a part of me that longs deeply...  A part of me that deeply envies others...  And there's a part of me that wishes I could experience the drug that is romantic love.  My heart is like a donut, or perhaps a bagel at times...  Not quite whole...

While it's true I long, there's also a part of me that wishes to journey and go it alone.  It's confusing to be pulled in two seemingly opposed directions...

I'm unsure what the right path for me is at this time...  I do know it helps for me to temporarily commit to something when I'm feeling low...  We'll see where this takes me...