Why does the word "deserve" offend me so much? I find it offending when people say "Such and such person isn't deserving of my time." Or "I deserve happiness!"
I seem to associate the word with discrimination... with blame... with ego... Only people who are deemed "worthy" can associate with those people who use the word "deserve" quite a bit...
Perhaps my offense stems down to my own feelings of unworthiness... As if I'm being reminded of my own self-whipping... The word goes straight to the quick, down to the rawness of it all... Perhaps I hate the word because deep down, it's what I really want for myself... I want to feel deserving... I want to feel like something special...
Guh! I dunno... I can't seem to reconcile with the word... And I'm turned off by those who imply "You don't deserve my time... You don't deserve my attention... You don't deserve to be a part of my life."
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