Power... What is it Good For?

As I contemplate the value of Power and what it's good for... Ultimately I believe power is good for protecting, especially protecting those who might be unable to protect themselves in some situations.

The idealist in me wants to believe in The Benevolent Leader... One who not only leads, guides, and inspires... but also protects all those under the leader's rule.

To Walk Down a Path Alone and Not Alone

Reflecting back, it seems like some of the areas I have found the most fulfillment involve me walking down a path alone... yet at the same time it wasn't alone.

The physical steps and actions were mine to take, where I had to put one foot in front of the other... but beneath those steps was what feels like an underlying force compelling me (or even at times possessing me--or what felt like possession), to traverse in one direction or another. Often someone or something or some event in my experience would uncover this strong force beneath, a force that would help to support and fuel my own physical journey.

My journey of walking down a path of consistently eating a plant-based diet is a good example of "walking alone and not alone." I was exposed to the idea from different sources. I saw the maps that others had taken, that the journey was indeed possible. And I felt strongly compelled to go and walk down that path, for better or for worse, not really knowing fully the implications of doing so, only knowing that it would have some outcomes I desired.

The process of learning to play guitar is another example. One day I randomly felt inspired by the play of others... uncovering any latent desire beneath... And then I had to go and physically undergo the actions needed to learn how to play, but with that strong support from something within driving me toward that direction.

I have often thought I have taken some paths one my own, but now reflecting upon it, it's as if the journeys were alone in taking the physical actions needed, yet not alone, because psychically there were strong forces accompanying the journey.

Afterthought: It's like I can't really take much credit for doing some of those things I feel most proud of or most fulfilled by. Perhaps I can take some credit in surrendering to the psychic forces involved, but I can't claim the action fully.

The Cloud that Hangs Over me

Safety, consideration, support, acceptance, trust, autonomy... These very human needs connected to my very strong desire to live with the most enjoyment possible... The raging storm brewing below, winds full of debris, ready to leave a wake of tattered cloth in need of constant repair.... until calmness, waiting for the next storm to arrive... wishing to exist within the eye of upcoming storms... never knowing if I can find the key to do so...

I Don't Know How to Escape My Brain

This brain that I was born with full of predisposition... This brain shaped by so many experiences over a long period of time... This brain quickly jolted and sculpted by the strongest of emotional experience... This brain that continually formulates and abides by many narratives...

So many times I want to follow a different storyline... or at least I think I want to follow a different storyline... and then I fall right back into the same grooves.... I re-live the same patterns... re-live many of the same memories, even those which feel painful to uncover beneath the dirt which I try to cover it...

I'm locked in... and I don't know how to get out...

The Soft Glowing Light in The Dark

A soft glowing radiant light in among the night sky
Ready to sing a song of renewal and sweeping change...
But not until the proper preparations have been made...
A reluctant destruction

The Raw Potential Programming within DNA

Within DNA there exists raw potential programming, allowing for a multitude of cellular expression... I wonder how all of that raw potential information and programming came to be... how all the various forms were encoded DNA, allowing interaction and change with the environment.

Living as an Act of Consumerism?

All living beings, in order to keep on living, to keep on surviving, must consume... Our basic physiology demands that we must consume the living or once-living. Something living must always die, with its organic matter being transmuted into energy  for another living thing to live.

But it seems as a human being, in order to live in a way that feels fulfilling, we must create a balance by also somehow contributing back to the life that we must take. Bearing some kind of fruit or nectar from nourishment taken in seems to be important.... to somehow add to the sweetness of living...