To Walk Down a Path Alone and Not Alone

Reflecting back, it seems like some of the areas I have found the most fulfillment involve me walking down a path alone... yet at the same time it wasn't alone.

The physical steps and actions were mine to take, where I had to put one foot in front of the other... but beneath those steps was what feels like an underlying force compelling me (or even at times possessing me--or what felt like possession), to traverse in one direction or another. Often someone or something or some event in my experience would uncover this strong force beneath, a force that would help to support and fuel my own physical journey.

My journey of walking down a path of consistently eating a plant-based diet is a good example of "walking alone and not alone." I was exposed to the idea from different sources. I saw the maps that others had taken, that the journey was indeed possible. And I felt strongly compelled to go and walk down that path, for better or for worse, not really knowing fully the implications of doing so, only knowing that it would have some outcomes I desired.

The process of learning to play guitar is another example. One day I randomly felt inspired by the play of others... uncovering any latent desire beneath... And then I had to go and physically undergo the actions needed to learn how to play, but with that strong support from something within driving me toward that direction.

I have often thought I have taken some paths one my own, but now reflecting upon it, it's as if the journeys were alone in taking the physical actions needed, yet not alone, because psychically there were strong forces accompanying the journey.

Afterthought: It's like I can't really take much credit for doing some of those things I feel most proud of or most fulfilled by. Perhaps I can take some credit in surrendering to the psychic forces involved, but I can't claim the action fully.