Monday, August 31, 2020

Inclusion Magic

 Related to my previous post... it seems like some people have the ability to take material that has the huge potential to create feelings of Exclusion, but present them in a manner that creates Inclusion instead. To me it seems like magic. Perhaps it's because they are linking to a more general story that everyone can relate to on some level or perspective.

Open and Easily Revealed

 There is a quality in others I am discovering I admire greatly... It's one of being very openly honest about experience, from what might be considered uncomfortable, even embarrassing... And somehow combining it with the other side of the spectrum, sharing in a manner that is enlightening, inspiring, and uplifting for others... sharing insights and observations that may be readily apparent but are covered by a thick haze. From fear, doubt, and sorrow... to hope, dreams, and joy... Revealing both sides of the coin that try to move us towards Life itself... The parts that make us quintessentially Human... Our warts, our Beauty...

By being revealing, casting a light onto the darkest of dark... Making what feels uncomfortable seem more okay... These people allow others to free themselves from some of the chains of fear, embarrassment, shame, and guilt: the binding emotions that can keep people from being their best selves in relationship towards each other. At the core of their openness is a strong willingness to try to help bring other people up along side with them... There is a sense that we are all in this journey together. Sharing in this manner helps to connect what feels like separate parts, revealing a more complete picture, the wholeness of a person... the wholeness of All Persons... Making sacred those things we may wish to keep hidden and secret... Creating a sense of Okayness for who we are as Human Beings, wherever we may be for a given moment. We are all living, and trying to live as best as we know how, as best as we are able, as best as we can.

Sunday, August 30, 2020

Find And Remember Your Deepest Sustenance

Find and remember that which touches your Core
That which fills and soothes your Deepest Cracks
The Sustenance that brings you closer to your Fullest Being

The Personal Story or Narrative I Believe In Most

 When I am able to remember, it seems like the story or narrative I believe about myself the most is one of "The Soul Searcher." I seek out those gates that help me feel glimpses of "My Soul", or what I subjectively perceive as feeling like soul. 

I try to find those gates over and over again
With the hopes that each time I fall asleep
Each time I lose touch and awareness
Each time it feels like I have forgotten...
I will remember a little more each time
I will be able to hold onto that sense of Home
Even after traversing in a different direction
Hoping I will be able to continually find my way back...

Saturday, August 29, 2020

My Musical Desire

 When I am able to remember clearly what I want... remembering what first drew me towards trying to play music in the first place... I suddenly remember my deepest desire with music is to be moved so deeply that it feels like a kind of religious experience... it feels transcendent... numinous... like prayer... As if both giving and receiving at the same time... Linked to a different space or place... The flood of warm chemicals permeating and filling every break, every crack within me... and I am comforted, soothed, and more complete for a short period of time...

I am not sure why, but often the thing I wish to remember and experience the most... it seems so easy to forget and lose touch with... That hidden well that seems to exist within seems to easily disappear from the surface of consciousness... until lucky enough to catch and feel a glimpse once more...

Friday, August 28, 2020

The Possessive Power of Symbols and The Collection of Thought Connected to Those Symbols

 Symbol has the power to connect to deep facets of our psyche. When connecting to needs related to survival needs, often without knowing it, we can be entranced by the associated thoughts connected to a symbol.

A wedding ring, a gesture of goodwill and caring, a phrase, a flag... Creating connection through our abstract deep thoughts related to survival... Our longing to live, feel supported, with the aid of others. Our longing for safety and access via status or affiliation.... Under the possessive power of a symbol we become willing to go to extreme lengths in order to satisfy the underlying impulses and urges towards life and its continuation.

We are even willing to give the best of ourselves... We are even willing to kill... driven by the symbols we have surrendered to... the underlying forces we have surrendered to...

Tuesday, August 25, 2020

Multiple Motivational Mindsets to Help Energize Individuals Meet Needs and Goals

 It seems different individuals respond best to specific motivational mindsets when trying to meet their needs and achieve their goals or desires. Finding and adopting a Best Fit Mindset for an individual seems to be helpful, versus a mindset that isn't as helpful for the individual.

Off the top of my head... a few different Motivational Mindsets I have observed:

- Advancement/Status/Opportunity/Power/Privilege/Mastery: A mindset with the idea that one can better one's position in order to gain things they desire... access to more resources, the possibility of increased security by gaining more resources, feeling admired and/or respected, social mobility...

- Social Approval/Belonging/Support: A mindset of doing things for others or for groups one associates with. This can include making those in perceived power proud (teachers, parents, guardians, coaches, bosses, etc) and gaining their support, favor, and approval. An individual "does things for others", helping them to better blend in and assimilate to group expectations. An individual might also seek social support from peers, friends, social groups they belong to, organizations, etc. An individual might attempt to show their allegiance to a group by demonstrating that they meet the expectations and beliefs of the group, by advocating group values and fighting against those who do not espouse the same values and expectations.

- Stimulation/Excitement/Seeking/Arousal: A mindset that involves different subsets of strategies dealing with a need for constant stimulation, seeking out new rewards and possibilities. This often involves curiosity, learning, and exploring what can or might be. "It seems like this might be true. I will explore this further to see if that is the case." "What will happen if I do this?" "What kind of excitement can I feel when trying this out?" "What are the boundaries and limits? Of this activity? Of my ability?" Sometimes this mindset can take the form of a reactionary Rebellious Mindset in the form of "I will prove the naysayers wrong! I will show that this is possible when they think it isn't."

There are probably many more, but based on people I know, these are the one's highlighted in my head. We likely engage in all the Motivational Mindsets to some extent, but it seems people are more energized by some mindsets more than others.

I am definitely most energized by seeking and exploration, wanting to continue to learn new things, and wanting to know what is possible for me as an individual, and what fits best for me as an individual. I do wish to be liked and supported by others, as well as having influence and social standing... But I get the most done the mindset of curious exploration, and at times rebellion.

Monday, August 24, 2020

My General Philosophy for Now: Walk Along the Path of Slight Resistance

 My adopted mindset for now is to keep meeting my edge while walking in the direction I think I want to head... To embrace slight feelings of discomfort, to use resistance in order to grow and create new possibilities... To also embrace feelings of uncertainty as I tread along a path with a vague sense of desire to head in a certain direction... To go along with the compass, while not knowing why I really want to go there, and not knowing what destiny awaits beyond the dense overgrowth...

Friday, August 21, 2020

The Comedic Dance of Trying to Be Seemingly Opposite Things

 I want to be spontaneous, flexible, responsive, and adaptive towards my environment...
Yet, at the same time I also want to be focused, consistent, unwavering, and persistent in my pursuits...
Oh the madness these seemingly opposite things have caused my brain...

I want to be considerate and thoughtful of other people's needs, trying to help them meet those needs...
Yet, at the same time I wish to be self-ful, making sure to address and meet my own needs and desires...
The dance of trying to balance the two seems challenging, because each takes its own time and energy...

I want to be hardcore and steadfast... And at the same time I want to be light and playful...
And so on 
And so on
And so on...