As someone who is often quite scatterbrained, jumping place-to-place, being really into one activity, then losing interest and shifting to another, I've been reflecting on those activities I have Come Back To Consistently, time and time again...
After much reflection, it seems there are a few overarching themes to those things I feel continuously motivated to do:
- Self-Expression: Trying to increase and hone my skills in areas that help open up opportunities for personal self-expression. So often I feel unable to express myself, often times feeling like what is within gets Stuck, needing some kind of medium to get it out. It feels freeing to actually be able to come close to expressing my experience.
- Aesthetic Self-Stimulation: As someone who often relies on modulating my various moods and emotional states, I find aesthetic self-stimulation to be one of the tools I go to often, whether it's for self-expression as mentioned above, or just pure enjoyment from engaging the senses with something that somehow feels meaningful, or sometimes there exists pleasure from viewing, listening, doing, etc... I find I want to somehow be touched within, with Something From the Outside, Reaching Something on the Inside.
- Curiosity and Ongoing Exploration: I find the act of continuously learning to be extremely pleasurable and satisfying. Somehow filling my brain helps fill the feel-good (perhaps due to early conditioning experiences?). I feel especially satisfied if what I am learning is tied to (in my perception) The Experience of Being a Human.... The Experience of Living itself... with all the Joys and the Sorrows, and the storylines that go along with all the ups and downs that come along with our individual journeys on this rotating sphere that revolves cyclically around the sun.
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