Torn

So often I feel like my psyche is torn and at war with itself... This happens with a lot of things... But lately what comes to mind is the act of doing things that I consider creative. Part of me thinks it's the most wonderful and fulfilling thing to engage in... Another part of me feels like it's the most useless thing... that it's a waste of time and meaningless. These are energies I'm unsure if I can ever reconcile.