There's a strange kind of tempting energy to indulge in when angry. There's a sense of saying "I am right!", and the accompanying feelings of anger make us believe in the truth of our thoughts. But we can have dreams, which our minds interpret as real at the time, and the emotions felt during the dream are very much real... the energy cannot be denied.... and yet what was experienced was only a dream.
Indulging in anger brings on a sense of blame, a sense of victimhood... There's temptation to use those false feelings as justification for trying to exert power over others... power which does not see the other as deserving of kindness and compassion. The clouds that are created cause blindness toward the best parts of others and the best parts of ourselves...
How does one free oneself from the temptations of indulging in angry energy? There are times I want to remain angry and not let it go, despite knowing likely reasons for others acting in the way they act. I'm caught somewhere between understanding and feeling like a victim... purgatory...
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