If there's one thing I can never seem to get over, it's the feeling of loss. I'm so ridiculously hypersensitive to loss. Lost connections, especially to those I felt connected to, it hurts so much.
One of the things I crave most in life is to connect on some deep level... When I do find those rare connections, and then lose those connections, it hits me so hard and deep... i just want to sigh continuously...
And ironically, I'm also crappy at maintaining friendships and connections... So it's like I set myself up for some of my losses... It's as if one of the lessons I have to learn to deal with in life is how to deal with painful loss...
So far I still don't know how to deal with it...
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