When I start to approach a raw spot for me, I can feel myself panicking and wanting to run away. I start to engage in rash actions, losing my normally patient approach. I must breath and take a step back calmly, and sit in the unfolding.
Currently I can see my fear of social mistakes playing out. I'm hyperaware when others might be socially inappropriate. And when I push the boundaries of what is socially acceptable, part of me also worries that I may have pushed too far. Subconsciously it might be a way of testing out some of my greatest fears, a hidden fear of rejection, a hidden fear of losing connections...
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