When the Ego is Weak

When the ego is weak, I think there's a tendency to try to build ourselves up. And when the ego is really weak, we're susceptible to trying to claim a kind of divine power when we try to de-humanize another, claiming they are less than us, and that we are allowed to treat them as less, and even resort to violence if we must. A defensive attitude often turns into an offensive one.

When one believes themselves to be superior, the reality is that there is a strong underlying inferiority or insecurity below... An inferiority projected out onto others.

Music that Makes My Heart Beat Strongly

There's music that makes me heart beat
With longing, with intensity, with remembrance
Your face appears to me as my soul is touched while listening
Reminding me of times you yourself have touched me so deeply

I patiently wait for the moon with longing sighs...

The Sensitive Heart

How does one nurture the most sensitive of hearts? The one with so much love to give, but is so weary because of past hurts... The one whose soul is bursting at the seams to love and to be loved, but can't find the means to do so... How do I honor such hearts?

I don't fully know the answers to these questions... But I certainly hope to find out how to skillfully and gracefully navigate these treasured waters...

Bend

For the most part I feel I'm fairly malleable. It's probably a good thing because I don't always have the strongest force of will. I'm often willing to go along with the wishes of others to a certain point. There is a certain point where I will resist as best as I can, protecting what I feel to be my core. But sometimes I fear I won't be able to resist, and that I'll develop a kink within, and break...

Though malleable, there are parts of my individuality I cannot deny. If I do, my spirit breaks...

What I Need to Learn from You

I need to learn to love more fully when I can, especially when I see it's needed or beneficial, especially when no one else will... I need to honor my need to love, my need for an outlet for the love I have within...

I need to learn to engage in my own gifts more fully, and realize their power and their benefit... I have to give myself more credit for things I do for others...

From you I continue to learn and be inspired... And I will try to do the same: to teach and to inspire

Endless Love

This endless love I am drawn to
It is warm
It is nurturing
It is supportive
It is life-giving
It is filling
It is boundless
It is raw
And it is tender

The threads that connect me to this vital source are delicate
The threads are to be cared for...
The threads are to be nurtured and tended to
With time and with nuance
With subtle strokes that brush away layers
Ever so gently, ever so softly:
My continual caresses finally reach her core
An Infinite beauty finally revealed in all of her glory:
Her light in full bloom...

Sparks

A passion and knowledge that puts me to shame
A wit and humor like a fun bouncy game
A spark in your eyes that fills me with glow
An energetic connection that allows me to flow:
When you light up, I light up.