Sunday, June 28, 2020

The Storehouse of Reactions to Experiences

A storehouse to the myriad of human experiences one can have, serving as a means to understanding living itself and what it is we as living beings desire and hope for... A guide for making decisions on how to follow a path we believe to be fulfilling as living breathing beings...

Friday, June 19, 2020

Fear of Potential Impending Loss

I choke on my coughs
Balls of tightness within 
Bloom from the depths
I retch as I try to catch my breath
The searing heat caught within my throat
Breathing... broken...
Life's rhythm potentially altering
Another course currently unknown...
As I keep trying to inhale... exhale... inhale... exhale...

Thursday, June 18, 2020

Play Amongst Social Beings in Nature

Play amongst social beings, in young animals helps to hone survival skills, while simultaneously establishing hierarchy and role within a group context. Young animals "fight it out" or play fight so that there will be less fighting in the future amongst those that follow previously established positions or roles... Play isn't "all fun and games."

Tuesday, June 9, 2020

Drift

Wandering, floating, drifting off into space
Wondering if caught in some unseen orbit
Watching, observing, looking for any signs of life
Secretly hoping to see the largest of suns

Tuesday, June 2, 2020

2020: A Time of Highlighting Our Survival Strategy Narratives

By bringing many closer to the mindset of "experiencing one's own mortality", 2020 seems to highlight many of our survival strategy narratives: The things we are fearful of, what we believe to be important, and what we believe are the best ways to go about addressing those things.

Fear-aggression seems rather apparent, where what looks like expressions of dominance and strength are actually signs of underlying feelings of vulnerability. Strong expressions of bravado, brandishing signs and symbols of what look like to be power and strength masking strong underlying feelings of fear...

Fear of the unseen or unknown or unfamiliar... There is fear of an unknown novel threat that increases odds of dying sooner. There is fear of what to do and how to survive with a lack of accessible resources or a lack of monetary means to secure basic needs such as food and shelter. For some there is a fear of unseen systemic forces... a fear of being taken advantage of by the unseen forces of the world at large... Some have a fear of new technologies and their potential effects... Some have fear of medicines and their effects... Some of fear of mainstream thoughts... Some have fear of those they view as having extreme radical thoughts...

And when pushed towards our own edges of fear, so often we can easily be Transformed Into A Source of Fear for others or for ourselves. Our very thoughts can be a threat to Life itself, plunging us into states of mind where our actions begin to have the opposite intended effect: instead of contributing and supporting life as intended by our survival strategy narratives, we can easily become a source of destruction and death ourselves. Fear as a contagion can beget more fear all around. An emotion that is meant to protect us from harm can actually manifest and become a Source of Harm.

As humans who are also social beings, it is our tendency to want to feel affirmed in our own worldviews. We want to feel supported. We will tend to seek out those who support our mental realities, making it more of a physical reality in our minds, being affirmed by others. When we find others who share our own views, we feel like our "truth" is confirmed.

In general we also wish to be seen as "Good", and tend to try to seek out others who will confirm our own "Goodness." The feeling of being "Correct" is often equated as "Being Good" or "Being on the side of Right." Our strong overwhelming desire to be seen as good can become so polarizing that we suddenly become a source of Evil/Bad from another person's perspective. When we ourselves believe in our "Goodness" so strongly that we feel justified in taking action against those we believe to be "Evil", we can easily become a source fear, death, and destruction to others with an opposing viewpoint...

When Consumed By Fear we can view others or the world as a place full of Monsters, and by doing so, we easily become a Monster Ourselves...