Crater

I try desperately to continue filling this deep hole within me.  But the dirt and soil so easily washes away, as if nothing else were meant to grow in those deepest recesses any longer.  It's the missing that has a life of its own, creating something completely new  There's just no way to avoid something that reaches so deep.  I can only keep going, as a changed person...

Treasures Beneath the Heart

I've randomly noticed, the title of my blog relates to the exploration of the heart.  For those who believe in chakras, green is related to the heart center.  Darkness is often related to that which is beneath.  The soul is often the goal, the place we long to reach during our inner explorations.

It's the inner exploration I find some of the best parts of myself, yet at the same time the stirrings beneath are difficult to deal with at times.  Sometimes I run away, distracting myself by physical means.  While distraction can often bring a temporary sense of relief, at times I feel dull.

Sometimes it feels like there is Death in Life...  The process of the mundane, the everyday little things needed for the process of physical survival...

Sometimes it feels like there is Life in Death...  Freeing ourselves from ourselves...  Shedding old skin for what's below...  Within the dark there is the hidden light...

It seems like there is a fine balance of going too far in each direction...  How can one be in both places at the same time?  That I do not know...

Where Does the Time Go?

Sands keep slipping through these fingers
Often happening without notice
Yet at the same time
Bits of salt
Seep beneath this skin
Forever changing the essence below