Heart...
Brain...
Muscle, Sinew, Bone...
Growth, Maintenance, Repair, Immune system...

Whole versus the Illusion of Separateness...
All parts need love... A blood supply...

Without metaphor...
Without symbols...
My voice would feel trapped in walls...

Courage to work with Rawness of The Heart...

No Pain, No Gain.

What if this applied to emotional strength as well???
The Heavier the Better...

At what point do I push my idealism even further, expanding out...
Being even bigger than myself...

We're a species that doesn't need to consume the flesh of animals, Thus causing animals increased suffering...
Yet we still do...  I'd like to believe that we humans can do much better than that...  That we can further extend kindness across species...

Song writing, you are difficult, yet satisfying...
Even when what I write is crap.  LOL.
I should attend to you more often...

What's it like to not discover who we are?
To not know what we're all about?
To wind up getting caught up in the motions of life...
To live a life with the soul unfulfilled...

What if in actuality I'm more artist than nerd???
Why does this thought terrify me???
All these years I used to tie my identity to academics...
And now I could care less about academics...
I'd rather search the soul...  I'd rather seek beauty all around...
I'd rather be an admirer of people...

The willingness to make Big Bold Mistakes, knowing that much good can come from the leaps...
Is that a function of Ne?  Photography and writing seem to have helped me in this area...
My willingness to be wrong was much much less before...

Is a Holga camera totally like running on Ne???

I keep praying for the best result...
I keep praying for courage and strength to endure if the means to the best result is painful...

I never realized how much social convention can affect me so deeply...
In a fell swoop, hearing through the grapevine about someone from my not to distant past...
I feel it all over again, the ache within me...  An ache wishing to be relieved...
I feel the helplessness of the situation...  Wishing I could have her back in my life...

Social Suicide...
I think I'm good at that one...

Buried

Pressure built
Kettle howling
Floodgates burst

Pilot Light

There's a pilot light that exists within me...
So many times I've tried to put it out but to no avail...
Instead I've learned to expand around it...
To build new hearths...
Today I learned that someone will be living out the dreams I once had...
The dreams I once wanted so badly, but could not manifest...
Now I'm terrified of what may seep to the surface...
Beyond the confines of what I've been able to build...

The Unfolding...

Reminder to self to trust the unfolding of life...
What if things had been different, and I wasn't living in my current situation?
Perhaps there are lives that needed touching that I wouldn't have been able to touch...

There aren't many times I feel very confident in my abilities...
But there is an area I believe I can benefit others...
I really do believe I can help people find their way back home when they are lost...
By me just being myself without agenda, I feel I can open people up...
Allowing their hearts to expand and to love more greatly...
I feel like I can reach the people who are hurting, but are very much ready to love people, to love the world...

Or perhaps I'm being an overconfident jackass regarding my belief... Perhaps I'm being delusional...
Honestly, it's one of the few things I can say I truly believe in...

There are so many connections and re-connections that may not have happened if I had been in a different situation...   There is so much self-growth I may not have realized if I hadn't gone it alone...  I'd be more preoccupied trying to meet the demands of a relationship, rather than moving towards self-realization...

What would it be like to live life uncensored?
To live life without worry about any types of social conventions...
To do it the way I want to do it with caring what others think?

What would it be like to bare one's soul without any shame, embarrassment, remorse???

What if the meaning of life is to do our best to fulfill the potential of our own MBTI type???

I wonder if INFPs are soul snatchers...
I feel like those I let into my life...
Those who touch me...
They become a permanent part of me...

INFPs might have a sort of X-ray vision...
With special access into someone when gazing into their eyes...
And when listening to the sounds that echo from within another...

The Story My photography keeps telling me...

Realization...  The photos that I take that move me the most... or photos people take of me that move me most...  It tells my story...  Looking beneath the outer shell...  A willingness to wander, to seek, to go it alone...  A willingness to keep moving towards the light even if it burns...  Acknowledging and making friends with my shadow... Photography itself, being a light chaser...

The pictures and words that come from me teach me more about myself...

I'm so thankful for this means of self-expression...  It gets me closer to figuring out meaning and purpose...

The Power of Fi?

Fi at it's most powerful might be The Seed, The Essence...  Encapsulated from the influence of a world gone bad.

A willingness to be seared by emotions and passion...
The hotter the coal, the deeper the imprint...